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Friday, November 11th, 2011
11:49 pm - Two Steps Forward, One Step Back
Wat grandmother is more coherent, however there has been significant fluid buildup in her body, and she's suffering from pulmonary edema, basically fluid buildup in the lungs and wheezing like crazy. Docs have talked to me about having a peg tube put in, which is basically a colostomy bag and such. My mom and I both agree removing her feeding tube is a horrible, horrible way to let my grandmother go, especially when she's still somewhat coherent. Essentially it's death by starvation and I can't condone that.

Seeing my grandmother basically wandering between progress and failure, at th cusp of death just.... I wish I could go back in time, back to when my grandmother was happy and healthy....

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Thursday, November 10th, 2011
6:48 am - Good News For A Change
My grandmother woke up at 5:15AM, pointed to me and called me "ah boy", which is her pet name for me. In the time she was admitted last wednesday til today, she has made amazing progress, despite the cerebral edema (brain swelling), and the fact that the location of the stroke is located near the brain stem where the autonomous motor control center is.

I'm just taking this one small progressive step at a time.

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Monday, November 7th, 2011
5:08 pm - MRI Results are back
My grandmother, according to the docs, won't last much longer, her issues are only to get progressively worse.

.....

I just... I don't know anymore.

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Saturday, November 5th, 2011
5:02 pm
Grandma's brething is heavy, endemic for someone with arterial thrombosis. She's still considered in the 'red zone', which means that at any point her condition could get worse.

All i can do is be here for her, and pray she makes it out ok.

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4:09 pm - I Wish I could Infiltrate Dreams
I'm at the hospital by grandma's side, she's still in a coma, I keep training tool talk to her, to let her know I'm thre, but part of me wonders if it is nothing but a futile effort. First my uncle and now this.

Why...just, fucking why

current mood: sad

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Wednesday, November 2nd, 2011
4:58 pm - It's Kill Off my Family Day
As of this morning, my cousin Eugene called from malaysia to say my uncle passed away. At least his suffering ened and he went peacefully.

Then this afternoon my grandmother is unconscious and unresponsive, paramedics are called in and they stabilize her blood sugar, judging from her leftward gaze and inability to speak, it stands to reason she may have had a stroke, or a diabetic coma.

The next 48 hrs are going to be really crucial for my grandmother....

current mood: mournful

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Tuesday, August 16th, 2011
9:34 am - LAWL!
Ok, someone tried to trade in an iPhone yesterday to get credit towards a new phone. Cool, most people do this, it kinda stuck me as odd they were trying to trade in an iPhone 4. Then... my coworker notices something odd on the side, thought maybe it was one that had a built in stylus or something.

Nope.... it was an antenna.

This iPhone was a knock-off from China that sported an antenna! We refused to trade in the iPhone and he promptly threatened to call the ATF and FBI on us. This after he allegedly tried to rip off the iPhone demo.

What a fucking joke.

current mood: amused

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Monday, August 1st, 2011
8:49 am - Why I'm a fan of My Little Pony Friendship is Magic
I figure this would be a great outlet to kinda get this off my chest, since a lot of people have been asking the most overused one word question. WHy?

Well.. let's do a step by step as to HOW I got hooked on this confounded show anyway.

I browse Lulz.net a lot, I'll admit, most of that, is for the art. Oft times you'll find art there that's good and that you didn't know existed. If there were a "FUKKIN SAVED" button, trust me, there'd be one for there. The furry drama though eh, I don't bother paying attention to it primarily because I just don't care. Anywho.. on one thread I noticed a significant amount of these memes being posted, and it kinda reminded me of a mix between My Little Pony that I remember from the 80s and Powerpuff Girls.

So henceforth I went on to 4chan and started browsing threads, and noticed poni EVERYWHERE and talk of this new reboot to the MY Little Pony franchise. Curious, I began to browse, and clicked on a link that brought me to an episode called "Bridle Gossip". Flutterguy did me in, I HAD to see the rest of the series, and so I watched, every episode, TWICE. Feeling Pinkie Keen did me in though, the awesomeness of the show producers including Derpy as canon was... glorious.

Ah, but WHY do you like this show? Nostalgia may have a little to do with it, but to be honest, I like the show because it offers something no other show on TV offers or delivers in such a fun and very non-pandering manner. Important takeaways like, how to treat your friends, someting that as warm and inviting as the furry fandom has been for me, the amateurish treatment of friends irked me, especially if ideologies clashed, or someone brought up an opinion that differed from theirs. Secondly, I love this show for how it makes me feel afterwards. Many shows that I USED to watch, like House, Stargate SG1, Voyager, etc. As awesome as the plots and stories of these shows were, never really had anything useful I could apply to areas outside of my life. With this show, that changes, this show kinda teaches the basics of friendship, stuff that quite frankly needed to be re-iterated, because in some instances, the word 'friend' seems... almost synonymus with "Yes Men".

I think one thing about this show is it's given me a deeper understanding and appreciation of all the little things in life.

current mood: cheerful

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Tuesday, July 26th, 2011
10:42 am - Rarity? Really?
Which My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic pony are you?



Rarity
Beautiful, stylish and sparkling with class, you're the candy of every pony's eye and a complete charmer. But you're not just a pretty face- you're also an artist! Wether you're creative at fashion or painting or even song-writing, your imagination is the real jewel on your personal crown. And you know this, so you flaunt all your gorgeousness like there's no tomorrow; but the best thing is you use your skills to help others feel great, too! Unfortunately your confidence can often be mistaken for arrogance. Luckily your real friends know just how lovely you are!

Take this Quiz · Browse Quizazz


I kinda figured I'd be Pinkie Pie or something. Ah well. :D

current mood: amused

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Wednesday, June 29th, 2011
9:20 am - Transformers Dark of the Moon
Alls I gotta say about this movie.

Leonard fucking Nemoy, I came.

current mood: amused

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Saturday, May 14th, 2011
11:49 am - Oy vey
My friend's 17 year old kid may have gotten his 15 year old girlfriend pregnant.

DUMBASS!!!!!!

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Saturday, March 19th, 2011
10:13 am - You Know WHat Today Is??
o/~ 3 Months of winter coolness, and awesome holidaaaays! o/~

Happy Winter Wrap Up day everypony!



current mood: amused

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Tuesday, February 15th, 2011
9:18 pm - Hee hee!


Yeah... Rainbow Dash's line of "I kissed a girl" just made this video reach epic proportions of win. :D

current mood: amused

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Friday, February 11th, 2011
2:43 pm - MLP Goodness
DERPY HOOVES AT 11:09! :D

I came rainbows.



current mood: amused

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12:12 pm - MLP Stream happening!
http://www.justin.tv/Basil34#/w/854442496

Livestream, Pinkie Pie predicts the future! :D

Best, episode, evar.

current mood: amused

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11:15 am - New Episode Tonighjt!
Judging by the buzz on 4chan, it's a good one. :D



Forever Brony.

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Thursday, February 10th, 2011
10:32 am - Goddamn you 4Chan!
MLP + Team Fortress 2 = EPIC WIN!



current mood: amused

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Saturday, February 5th, 2011
11:22 am - Oh WOW...
My Little POny blew my mind, twice. Brain-jizzed.

First was the inclusion of the Timelord pony, who looks strikingly like David Tennant.

And.. then there's this.



Watch that video first... and then watch Rarity's song "The Art of the Dress"



Mind = blown

current mood: amused

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Friday, February 4th, 2011
11:40 pm - Quickie Updates!
So... nothing gets the country of Canada together than making fun of Toronto and the "Snowmageddon That Didn't Happen"

Also... DAMNB YOU ALL!!!! I started watching that new My Little Pony series, and as much as I detest the art style, something about the show is endearing.

And... I hate to admit it, but I have a crush on Rarity and Fluttershy. >_< GODDAMN THE PONIES!

current mood: amused

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Wednesday, January 5th, 2011
4:30 am - Writing it down while I still remember it.
I had an absolujtely HORRIBLE nightmare and I can't go back to sleep right now 'cuz some teenager has their music or whatever blaring upstairs and the bass is carrying down into the floor.

I had a nightmare, a terrible nightmare that was so real it felt like it wasn't a dream. I had dreamt that one of the horses, my favourite little pony mare, Daisy, was dead. She was sprawled on the floor, legs in the air, cold. I could feel the crisp cold of winter snapping at my skin as I ran back inside to tell my friend that Daisy was dead. Her daughter was in tears crying as my friend hugged her daughter tight. Her husband walked out with me to the barn, and we examined the body along with the vet who was called immediately to the scene.

Her death was attributed to poor wiring coming in contact with some standing water that was in her stall. I sat there shaking, I could almost feel the tears in my eyes trying so hard to tell myself that this was somehow a dream, and that I would wake up from it, but I never woke up. Time seemed to stand still until finally we decided we needed to move her body.

THat's when this shit got weird, because then we decided to grab the tractor, slide the forks under the stall, and simply lift the unit away therefore making it easier to move her body. At which point my brain said "That ain't right."

Then I woke up, shaking and.... having this after feeling of terror, but mostly elated that it was indeed a dream.

current mood: thankful

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